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JOLENE TAN (:
14 September

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Harborlight Church & LIVEWIRE

Nanyang Polytechnic
Molecular Biotechnology

NYP-ADC Adventure Club (:

The LORD is my strength and my shield; My heart trusted in Him, and I am helped;Therefore my heart greatly rejoices,And with my song I will praise Him. - Psalm 28:7

The joy of the Lord is my strength.

Never let the fear of STRIKING OUT, keep you from playing the game.


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CONTINUAL OF ZAPPEL
Wednesday, June 24, 200910:46:00 PM
HELLO
I am back!
I shall continue what I was talking about!!
OH YEAH
GIFFY THE DOG!!!
THE CUTE DOG!!
I was like bringing the DOG for a WALK!!
I felt like its owner!!!
HAHAHHA COOL!!
YAY!!!
THAT's WHY I WANT A DOG NEXT TIME!!!
HAHAHA
WEST HIGHLAND TERRIER!!
I am coming!!
HAHAH
to get you!! (:

OKAY!!
as I was saying...
MET everyone!
WENT TO east coast park!!
SET UP OUR PICNIC!!
and the SCARY HAMMOCK!!
HAHA
everyone did not even dare to sit on IT!!
SOMEMORW I SO SHORT!!
CANT REACH!!
MUST JUMP JUMP!!
It was so scary that it was part of our DARE!!
when we were playing TRUTH AND DARE

okay!!
EVERYONE started EATING their dinner at like 5 plus
PIGS LA
HAHHAH
I was walking GIFFY and picking up his SHIT!!
HAHAH
then we were discussing about our LIVEGROUP NAME
ZAPPEL!!!
which is our drink!!
ZAPPEL APPLE!
YAY!!

After we were supposed to plan a cheers with our NEW NAME
then when Jovina was opening the bottle
I was preparing the cups
AND YES!!!
IT BURST WITH FOAM AND EVERYTHING
then only left half a BOTTLE la
HAHAH
I was sprayed with ZAPPEL APPLE
and the BAGS too
i think the bottle too HAPPY

after CHEERING
took PICS!!!
THEN WE STARTED THE NUMBER GAME
The one that u have to choose a no.
the rest guess the NO. using the number range
THE PERSON that GUESS RIGHT will have to
answer a TRUTH or DARE QUESTION!!
HAHAHAH
I was so glad I was the LAST FEW
but still GOT ATTACKED!!!
I chose TRUTH
AND THERE!!
WHAT A QUESTION
"Who do you like in church?"
I was like..
PLEASE NOT THIS!!
I dun want to say
So they changed to
"Who would you like to date in church?"
I WILL NOT SAY WHO HERE!
DUN BOTHER GUESSING
hahahah
I HOPE MY LIVEGROUP will keep it as our ZAPPEL SECRET
hahhaha
ALOT OF OTHER SECRETS WAS EXPOSED TOO!!
OH
OUR KITE GOT STUCK IN A TREE!!!
HAHAH

then the guys had to leave.
SO..
LEFT THE GIRLS
then we PLAYED the game
I NEVER
It is like
say what u never do
then those who done it will have to EAT something
CAUSE we were trying to FINISH the FOOD
HAHHA
Many secrets came out!!
BUT I AM SURE WE WILL KEEP IT TO OURSELVES
past HISTORIES and PROBLEMS too
HAHAHAH
We all opened up out HEARTS
It was QUITE SWEET!!!
(:
alright!!
I need to go!!
MUMMY need to use com!!
YEAH!!!
SUNDAY SUNDAY.
determine my FATE!! (:

BYE BYE (:

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LIVEGROUP MEETING.
Tuesday, June 23, 20092:53:00 PM
HELLO people!!
I am back with a very WORRIED heart!!
HAHAHAH
My mum wants me to ANNOUNCED the TRUTH!!
I was like NOOOOO
I think I am just TOO SCARED!!!
BUT...
I MUST THANK JOVINA and AUNT JO!!!
For praying for me!!
JOVINA still stay up SO LATE for me!!!
AWWWW
PLEASE PRAY FOR ME IF U CAN!!!!!
EVEN IF YOU SEEN THE MSG AFTER TUESDAY!! (:

I am ready for a POSITIVE OUTCOME.
BUT I hope GOD will prepare for BOTH!!!

OHH YA.
I forgot I am here to talk about YESTERDAY's LIVEGOUP MEETING!!!
ONE WORD!!
AWESOME!!!! (:
Dun worry JOVINA!
it is AWESOME!!
Me and Jo went there together.
then went to collect THE CAMERA from Derek
who is playing POOL with Javan.
I dun get why POOL is fun?
MAYBE CAUSE I AM STILL UNDER AGED.
haha
OKAY.
lucky we have a CAMERA to take STUPID PHOTOS!!
MET everyone at SUBWAY!!!
They bought their FOOD except for ME, YOGES and
my friend ALMANDA
SO we WENT MACS
but I still didnt want to buy ANYTHING!!
WEIRD!! NO APPETITE!

WENT TO MEET THE GUYS
BRYAN and GABRIEL
I MUST ANNOUNCED THE CTUEST THING
GRIFFY!!
HAHAHA
BRYAN's DOG for your INFO
is SO CUTE and FRIENDLY!!!!

I shall continue on what we did
ANOTHER TIME.
My mum is MAKING NOISE already.
BYE (:
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SUNKIST!
Friday, June 19, 200911:18:00 PM
Alright.
I just realised that I didnt blog about WWW= W
here Wolly Worz!!
AHHHHH
How can I be SO BLUR!!
FINE!!
SO let me start from the beginning
OHH
I need to find all the pics
SOON SOON!!

It was AWESOME!!!!
The plot was that we were supposed to be secret agent.
AND we were supposed to find
Wolly Worz!!
That WOLLY went missing after he went to search some crime scene.HAHA
Weird PLOT..
I KNOW


This year's OMG is in three days in a ROW.
WHICH ROCKS
cause the GAME SPIRIT is like continuous.
I LOVE IT
If its a CAMP, it will be EVEN better!!!
HAHAHAHAH

I shall start from the BEGINNING.
It was on a FRIDAY..
I had SCHOOL SADLY.
I still have extra lesson till 4.30pm!!
The games started at 5pm
SO YES!!
I AM EXPERT AT THIS!!!
RUSH RUSH RUSH!!
I flew down at 5.30pm
I KNOW I took ONE HOUR to 'FLY' down
DUN BLAME ME, its the BUS FAULT REALLY!
LUCKY, the people was kind enough to wait for me.
By the time, I reached I was starving.
I kept walking in and out of the place to eat
my KAYA TOAST that JOY bought for me!!
I was STILL HUNGRY.
The first game was like ice breakers I think
We were supposed to find the strongest and smartest PEOPLE
and they were supposed to move chairs that are connected with twine
to another PLACE
the game was SO lame
that I felt that eating my BREAD was more entertaining
HAHAHAH

THE PEEPS in MY TEAM
SUNKIST is
YONGHUI, GENEVIEVE, GIDEON, JOEL NG, EZRA and MYSELF
A
nd SO EVER AWESOME FACILITATOR is ESTEE!!

FIRST DAY= EAST COAST PACK
FIRST TASK - BURY the TALLEST PERSON in the SAND
SOMEHOW, I was glad I was not the tallest FOR THE FIRST TIME!!
HAHAHAH SEE SEE.
Being short can be a GOOD THING.
So we buried GIDEON.
HE was great, but he kept on moving!!
hahaha and the sand will slide down his body.
AND WE the sand builders have to rebuild the sand.
POOR GIDEON had to suffer with SAND in his mouth!!
HAHAH
then we had to decorate GIDEON.
AND the GUYS in our GROUP
was so SICK
that they made the sand in the shape of breasts
and a bump at the stomach meaning that GIDEON
IS PREGNANT
SICK!!
So when we were supposed to introduce our MUMMY.
i was like " Its a pregnant women giving birth in the sand!!!"
GROSS!!

SECOND TASK - Using spoons to contain sea water to fill a cup
SADLY, the cup have LOTs of HOLES
We had to fill water till the ping pong ball in the cup falls out!!
Its a HARD TASK!!
But we were winning SERIOUSLY
then we accidentally toppled the CUP
SO YES!!!
DISQUALIFIED!!
but we didn't give up!!
We did it AGAIN!!
SO YA
BUT I MUST SAY!!
IT WAS TIRING!!
REALLY!! Running in the sand!!
ARGH! and it was like uphill STILL
haha (:

THIRD TASK - Suck a pail of sea water with straws ONLY.
This one was PRETTY SIMPLE.
U SEE, using straws will mean sucking the seawater till the level that is close to your mouth
but I BET most teams suck the mouth into their mouths then spit it out
so it is MUCH FASTER!!
AND WE DID THAT!!
OHH YA.
I think JOEL was AWESOME!!
he said he got two ulcers in his mouth
but he still took PART!!
HAHAH
Then after that we could immediately start on the NEXT TASK!!

FOURTH TASK - Start a FIRE and burn off a string.
The materials were FANTASTIC!!
I LOVE THIS TASK THE MOST!!
It was like a typical SURVIVOR game task
AND I COULD FINALLY PUT my camp craft knowledge into good use!!
HAHAHAH
I am so HAPPY to announce that
MY GROUP got THREE UNIFORM GROUPS
so IT was the BEST
JOEL = SCOUT
ME = GIRL GUIDE
EZRA = NPCC
does NPCC set fires?? I NOT SURE
but anyway, SOME WENT TO pick the PUNK and KID LINGS
I was at the pit, BLOWING keeping the fire ALIVE
our fire was PATHETIC at first
not enough kid lings to burn
so it was dying, and leaves were a bit useless
cause when i was keeping the fire alive
I kept on blowing the leaves away!!
HAHAHA
But I must say only scouts and guides know the
PROPER PUNKS AND KID LINGS!!
the rest was a bit clueless.
But cant blame them la.
If i wasn't a guide, i would not know too
I WILL BE LIKE WHAT IS THAT?
But the ideal KID LINGs came at last.
AND WE MANAGED to SET THE FIRE FIRST!!
I was SCREAMING like a MAD PERSON!
SERIOUSLY
The wind was annoying, cause it kept on blowing the fire out
and unlike some other group still have cardboard to block the WIND
my group dun have!!
HAHAHAH
IT WAS GREAT!!!
NOW I really CHERISH my Guide SKILLS!! (:(:

AND that marks the end of the FIRST DAY!!


SECOND DAY= FORT CANNING PARK!!
I really seldom go FORT CANNING PARK
so I was like YAY!!
WE seem to be like going for excursion!!!
HAHAH
THE TASK

Teams were supposed to hunt around FORT CANNING PARK
using our only CLUE.
A PHOTOGRAPH of the places
but I wish it was that EASY
the photo was PATHETIC!!!
it was FOCUS on some SMALL THING and not the overview of the PLACE
SO UNLUCKY US
We took SOME CLUE that contain a very difficult PHOTO
IT was a STICK was red paint at the SHARP TIP.
so WE SEARCHED the whole PLACE!!!
like everywhere.
SO WE WASTED A LOT OF TIME
but we also had a glimpse of where the other teams stop
and also saw many places that we will cover for the other clues.
SO THE OTHER 7 CLUES were a BREEZE
cause we knew we bypass it somewhere
so it became an advantage for us
and we could find the places very easily.
IT was TIRING.
U know GiRLS dun have STAMINA!!
so I KIND OF SLOW DOWN after a WHILE.
But I MUST SAY THE GUYS were very gentlemanly.
and THEY KINDLY WAITED FOR US!!!!
MY TEAM's GUYS WERE AWESOME!!
HAHAHH(:
AND WE CAME IN SECOND!!! (:(:

But sadly, I had tuition after that!
from around 2plus to 4.30 was my only time to RUSH FOR HW!!!
HAHAHAHA
RUSH LIKE CRAZY!!
So by the time I reached tuition, I was practically BRAIN DEAD.
especially when I know the rest were going HOME!!
I WAS really falling ASLEEP in CLASS.
CAME HOME AT 10 PLUS with an EMPTY STOMACH with GASTRIC!!
ARGH!! what a bad way to end the DAY!!

OHH YA.
AND I AM ALSO DEDICATING THIS WHOLE PARAGRAPH
to my 'BELOVED' BLISTERS!!
I SHOULD HAVE WORE SCHOOL SHOES!!
I WORE SOME PUMPS THAT GAVE ME PAINFUL & BLOODY BLISTERS!!
ARGH!!!
it was painful ESPECIALLY when I was running,
i could feel that every step I take was PAINFUL.
THE FABRIC kept on rubbing against my blisters
at the END.
when I saw them
they were like rotting
the bubble BURST
so PUS was like all over the PLACE
it was swelling RED.
AND I WAS LIMPING.
without a walking STICK.
the worst nightmare was that tomorrow was at sentosa!!
A PLACE WITH SAND and TASK that requires more RUNNING
HOW TO RUN? when i can only LIMP FAST!! HAHAHA

THIRD DAY= SENTOSA!!
The LAST DAY was also the BEST DAY!!
I think it will be BETTER without my BLISTERS

I thought I will be great if I can go church for service
but I had to sent my MUM off at the airport
so I WOKE UP LATE only to hear my MUM telling me
that she want me to go church and my cousin taking over my place in the car!!
HAHAH
I WAS LIKE?
U SHOULD CALL ME UP EARLY!!!
So at least can go for SERVICE!!
ARGH!!
But couldnt say out.
TOO SLEEPY already

So I could rush there!!
LIKE I ALWAYS DO!!!
But i was afraid it will end when I enter like the previous time
and MY HAPPY MOOD will be DESTROYED
so i decided to take my TIME for once..
HAHAHA

MOVING ON
We took only i think half an hour to reach SENTOSA!!!!
AND we saw 7 Lamborghini zoom past us!!!
HAHAHAh
in like many colors some more!!
SO GORGEOUS!!
although i am not really interested in cars or sports cars
it was really a EYE OPENER!!
We finally reach TANJONG BEACH!!
We settle down,went to the loo if we need to.
I know I took ages to limp there and back.
HAHAH

TASK 1 - Burst the egg with candles.
We were supposed to use some candles to heat up the egg till it BURST
So JOEL told us to centralised the heat to one SPOT to quicken the heating
SO we waited.
WAITED
WAITED
WAITED
WAITED
WAITED
AND as u can see
it took AGES
ACTUALLY, our egg already burst!!
but it didn't POPPED!!
so only when the egg white came gushing out
then we 't know it burst!!
HAHAAH

So we RAN for the tram STATION that left without US!!
there was a few teams in there
SO WE RAN TO THE BUS STATION!!
IT WAS REALLY FAR!!!!!!
REALLY!!!

but we just didn't want to wait!!!
SO YA!!!
RAN!!!
got the BUS!!!!!
PANTING like CRAZY!!
and we had no WATER!!
WHAT???!!!

TASK TWO - Take ph
otos with 7 groups of people making funny faces
We target the foreigners as they were MUCH FRIENDLIER!!!
HAHAHA (:(:

TASK THREE - Find a foreigner to sing their NATIONAL ANTHEM
The guy we asked was SO NICE!!!!
HAHAAH
HE WAS TALL!!
AND I STAND BESIDE HIM feeling like a DWARF!!!
HAHAH

TASK FOUR - Find three foreign currency
We had trouble finding FOREIGNERS for this station!!
We were running like MAD COWS!!!
HAHAH

THE LONG-WAITED TASK FIVE - FIND WOLLY!!
Many groups were there,
i think three groups excluding us!!
This task must THANK JOY FOR fulfilling it for us!!!!
JOY MY DEAREST FRIEND
SCREAMED WHEN SHE FOUND WOLLY
so all four groups were rushing to get the info and take pic with WOLLY!!
JOY's group found WOLLY first but my group manage to take the PIC first!!!
HAHAHAAH

THEN we ran back to the bus stop!!
We were the only group running!!!
which is GOOD!!
WE managed to take a bus without the other groups
SO WE CAME IN THIRD!!!!
AWESOME!!!
We were all rushing to get WATER!!!
HAHAHA

OH YA!! ANOTHER DEDICATION!!
FOR my 'BELOVED' BLISTERS
I must thank GOD!!
I ran like crazy without feeling tha pain!!!
I told God to numb the pain when I'm running!!!
CAUSE I dun want to be a burden to my GROUP!!
So surprisely, my leg only hurt when I resting.
It was not pain, but the womb got worst!!
SAND, PUS, my purple medication and BLOOD
PEOPLE THOUGHT my LEG ROTTING LA
TURNED PURPLE!!
HAHA
I could have played some captain's ball but
it started to hurt when I rest
so AUNT JO went to clean my womb which OBVIOUSLY hurt!!
ABIT!!!
So I could only sit on the sand and see the rest PLAY!!
I tried to play for a while,
but sand went in and it HURT!!!
so rather be SAFE then SORRY!!
I dun want an infection!!!
HAHAHA
and when I sit there,I was observing PEOPLE playing CAPTAIN's BALL
THE STARES and the PASSES.
who will always pass to who and who never catches the BALL
AND WHO ALWAYS FALL!!!
HAHAHAH
ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS!!

After that, went to VIVO CITY to settle dinner!!!
PACKET-ED our food and eat at the rooftop!! (:
it was great except that we can hardly see what we are eating
and where we are putting our food into!!
HAHHA
WENT back WITH JOVINA and JOY!!!
TALKED about aot of STUFF!!!
GIRL stuff!!
MANY SECRETS got revealed
MAN!!!!
HAHAHAH
WHATEVER was said there will forever remain
within inside the inside of the BUS!!
(:(:(:(:
Its like 2.40am already!!!
I think this is my LONGEST POST!!!
HAHA!!
I was never so hardworking to make such a LONG POST!!
HAHAH
WILL UPLOAD the photos when I get or find them!!
GOODNIGHT!! (:
CHURCH TOMORROW!! HURRAY!!
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I think I'm DREAMING
Thursday, June 18, 200910:00:00 PM
I long to find that similar purple sunset to remember my rooftop fantasy.

Its been a weird few days!!
And I have no idea how to explain it. It all started on WEDNESDAY.
There are stuff I CANT SAY here
But it leads me to this photo
I remembered seeing it before.
But everyone say they didnt seen it.
I went to many websites to find this photo
But it is no where to be found.
It was a photo that SOMEONE took at the
FOOD EXTRAVAGANZA.
I remembered I showed one of my friend the photo
But I asked her today and
she said she never seen any photos
about the food HUNT.
THAT'S the scary PART.
I was very sure it was a PHOTO
cause I could see my BACK VIEW.
MY OWN BACK VIEW!!!
NO ONE SEEMS TO KNOW
THERE WAS SUCH A PIC!!
only ME can??
It feels so fresh in my HEAD.
I could remember it so clearly.
It was at the part where
we first started the FOOD HUNT
THE PART where one person had
to finish plates of MASHED POTATO
I remembered I was passing cups of water
I COULD REALLY REMEMBER!!
SOOOOO..
I drawn the picture in my head out.
HERE IT IS:

The pictures seems to be taken
from the back of the theater or the hall.
ANYONE WHO SEEN THIS PHOTO
OR REMEMBERED THIS SCENE
FROM THE FOOD HUNT.

PLEASE TELL ME!!!
I NEED AND HAVE TO KNOW!!
I HAVE TO CLEAR MY DOUBTS
OR I CANT SLEEP TONIGHT!!
THANKS (:(:(:

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What are HOLIDAYS again?
Thursday, June 4, 200911:06:00 PM
I WILL REACH THE END. I JUST KNOW IT. I BELIEVE.
GOD just lead me now.

AHH!!
I know I have not been updating my blog.
SORRY!!!
Very BUSY LIKE CRAZY
And I hardly go online NOW!!
Where got time!!
HAHAHAH

SO..
This week is suppose to the June HOLIDAYS
But I still have school till next week.
So YA!! NOTHING much to look forward to REALLY
BBBBBBUUUUUUUUUUUTTTTTT!!
TOMORROW is
WWW OMG!!
Yes!!
AWESOME AWESOME!!!
I been waiting for like ages
But have extra lessons till 3.30pm
so wil be late
I am always LATE??!!
FOR EVERYTHING

Went for Prayer and PRAISE on WED!!
LOVE IT
AND cherished it.
Cause most of the time have TUITION
It was AWESOME
just that we ended like SUPER LATE
10!! AHHHH
I was supposed to be home by THEN
But nvm
God planned.
So came home.
PArents didnt scold.

Next.
My mum.
I am so worried for her!!
AHHHH.
I dunno what to do but pray.
Please pray for my mum too!! THANKS(:
I cant realy state the reason here
ABIT DANGEROUS
so U CAN ASK ME!! (:

OHH. on monday
Chinese O just passed by.
Was so freaked out!!
I wanted to scream in the middle of the EXAM HALL
HAHAHAH
But at least its over!!

AND on TUESDAY.
I WITNESSED the killings of
a baby FROG and SPIDER.
I AM SO SORRY.
this was what happened....
HAD CCA.
Dunno why I still have CCA.
but nvm
We had to do outdoor cooking
which is cooking in the field
by digging a hole in the grass
use it as a PIT.
WRAP food in foil and put it in the ambers
of the fire we created through blowing
and punks and kindling.
Then my patrol pit was pretty small,
and when I was calling my juniors to blow the fire
and PUSHING their head CLOSER to the fire.
I SPOTTED the green, slimy,dumb baby frog
It was hopping its way to the pit (FIRE)
I was like NOOOOOO!!!
Please dun!!!
I wanted to pick it up
BUT It was too close to the fire
and i know if i get closer.
it will jump in
My friend heard me screaming for HELP.
she came.
and tried to pick it up.
but to the frog.
my friend was leading the frog to its grave.
It JUMPED. I SCREAMED.
MAN I wished I can stop TIME for once.
It went straight in!!
JUMP a few times
then its skin melted like
candy floss in your mouth
It was GROSS.
I thought of adding frog soup
in the menu of my patrol's outdoor meal
I think BBQ frog sound more accurate.
then I dug a small pit to bury the remains of the frog.
May it REST in PEACE.
After years of being a GUIDE,
I have seem so many deaths of frogs
in my school field.
I had buried so MANY!!
5 I think.
OHH.
Then when we were waiting
for the food to cook in the ambers
A SPIDER jumped in too.
I think it thought it was a swimming pool
HAHAHAHA
But we still eat the food
BUT ENDED UP HAVING A STOMACHACHE
hahahaha.
I am sorry FROGGIE AND SPIDER.

Lastly,
I have decided that I AM GOING TO
BUY A SECOND HAND GUITAR!!
YUPP
I really cant use my cousin's
It is very painful and hard.
So I shall get a cheap one from
CASH CONVERTER
hahhaha
I KNOW I AM VERY CHEAPO!!
HHAHAHA
I dun really care la
Just can play in tune
and not like very dirty can already!!
and must look NICE la
WENT there today
there was a
BROWM YAMAHA ACOUSTIC GUITAR
that caught my EYE
It look GORGEOUS!!
the first thing I did was check whether
it was easy to press the strings
then, i see the design.
it was coated with drops of paint.
DUNNO WHY
I have to save up to BUY!!
HAHAHAH
OKAY
tomorrow still have school!!
SO GOOD NIGHT!!
OH
AND JEREMY
I finally changed your name (:
HAAHA (:

GOODNIGHT!!!!!! (:
I am always not having enough SLEEP
OH MAN!!
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