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That love and warmth numbed my pain.

Sunday, January 18, 200910:30:00 AM

That BOOK.
That love and warmth numbed my pain.
I tell you!!
I love IT!!! I LOVE it like CRAZY!!
I also found and placed the encouraging notes
my dad threw away with the BOOK!!
I must really thank all the GIRLS
AMANDA mummy, YONG HUI, ESTEE, JERI, JOY bio-partner, JOVINA, LIPING, NICOLE, AVELINE, RACHEL, GLENDA, Aunt JOE, YOGES and TRACY
I must thank all of u for writing so SWEET MESSAGES to me!!
If u have no idea what I am TALKING
let me explain!
Yesterday,
after church.
AMANDA passed this book
with encouraging messages from all of the names above!!
cause remember..
My dad threw away mine, the last time!!
hahah
but these notes are much better though!!
haahahaha

I was so TOUCHED!!
It was so unexpecting!!
I was so shocked!!
I can kiss the book to SLEEP can!!!
hahahah
THANKS!!!
I love it!!
It really ENCOURAGED me!!!!
I am bring it WHERE EVER I go!!!
hahahahhaah
My constant GUIDE to encouragement.
hahhaahhh

Before I got that encouraging messages
I was PRETTY annoyed,
cause I may not be able to go for WATER Baptism!!
And I really want to go!!!
OH MAN!!
I never know when is the NEXT one coming
It goes the same for my 401 lesson!!
AHHHHHH!!
CANT stand it!!
I can feel the ANGER raising!!
UP UP UP!
CRAP.

OHH!!
Today,
woke up at 10am the same time as the church service!
hahaha
DOING work now!!
have SCIENCE TUITION later!!
AND a BBQ too!!
specially requested by me!!
I ask my teacher la!!
then she planning to invite the last year
O level people too!!
we are supposed to SERVE them I think!!
BUT nevermind
I just love the FOOD!!
hahahahah
YAY!!

But I am still not recovering from my FLU!!
So cant eat too much!!
my throat still very BAD!
hahahah

I can finally smile.
and look forward to tomorrow.
cause I know that I am not alone
God is with me and He always was
Just that I was too upset with MYSELF
that I didn't realise
But now I do
I am not going to HATE myself, my life
Now the more I hate something,
I will LOVE it more!
I will not blame
I will praise
I must really thank Pastor Kenny for bringing me back to my senses!!
He told me he will bring church to me!!!
And never let me MISS out in anything!
I was so happy!!
since I was left out in alot of STUFF!
but I shall not name them
what he said,
like brought me back to church!

I must go through this with God's strength
He will support me ALL THE WAY
I must reach the END and say
I WON!!
VICTORY is mine!!
YES!

I must BELIEVE in the spiritual ram,
then it WILL happen in the physical ram!
YES!

the MORE troubles coming my WAY,
BEWARE!
JOLENE is not a weakling ANYMORE!!
I will fight BACK!!
and WIN you all!!
I will twist those TROUBLES around!!

OHH!!
My dad suddenly very FUNNY!!
He suddenly gave me money to go buy SHOES!!!
hhahahha
FOR Chinese New Year!!!
hahahaha
I dunno wat to buy LEH?
how?
HEELS?
PATENT FLATS?
BALLET FLATS?
WEDGES?
OHH MAN!
And I want it CHEAP!!
then can save up the REST!!
hahahaah
I very lazy go out AGAIN!!!!
HOW HOW??
first time I am troubled with buying
hahhaha
WEIRD!!!
I only know it has to match my both dress!!
hahhaa
maybe a not very high heels!!
since I dun have one!!
hahah
I know it will be BLACK or white!!
hahahaH

Shall do some of my TAWG now!!
hahahhah (:

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