love the way you smile (:

I GIVE UP!!!

Wednesday, December 31, 200811:52:00 AM

Yesterday!!!
Met RACHEL, AVELINE, JOY, YOGES at Bugis
to BUY clothes for AVELINE!!
hahahhaah
We walked around and FINALLY BOUGHT
a nice SHIRT
and also a NECKLACE more like a chain from DIVA
It was REAL NICE!!!
I heard AMANDA saying that
that shirt and necklace is so JOLENE!!
LIKE of course!
hahahahah
I must make sure I see AVELINE wearing that SHIRT!!!
I MUST!!
hahahahha

then after that
AVELINE and RACHEL needed to go POPULAR
And RACHEL wanted to TREAT us GELARE
so we wanted to go HOUGANG cause have
both Popular and Gelare.
But in the END!
SMART RACHEL thought of something ELSE
We went PS to eat Gelare
then go PARKWAY Popular!!
hahaahaha
so we rushed there
and YEAH!!
this are the PHOTOS we TOOK!! (:
U know why the FIRST FEW photos I am not in IT!!
CAUSE POOR JOLENE was ORDERING the FOOD!
AND they just slack and take PHOTO!!??
I had to WALK like 3 rounds back to the TABLE
cause some flavours not there
and dunno whether they WANTED sauce!!
VERY TIRING lor!!
walk here walk there!!
BUT for the WAFFLE!
ITs worth it!!
JUST exercising BEFORE eating!!
hahahhah

I MUST THANK RACHEL FOR THE TREAT!!!
THANK YOU RACHEL!! LOVE YOU!!
THE WAFFLES WERE GOOD!!
(:(:

JOY and YOGES!!

JOY's PINK PANTHER!!

AVELINE and RACHEL. They love posing with their BOTTLES??
hahhaahah

GROUP PHOTO!! finally back from ordering!! (:

It's annoying when u are the camera man
Your face will always be CUT into HALF!!

READY TO EAT!! my stomach was REALLY growling!! hahah

The FOOD!! WAFFLE with ICE-CREAM!! YUM!!

Just WITHIN seconds!!
THERE are gone!!
SERIOUSLY, we eat like REAL FAST!!
maybe because we SHORT of time too!!
hahahaha

TOILET SHOT!

CAME back home!
AND then went to AMANDA's house to watch HSM 2
hahahahah
it was QUITE late by the time I came back!
AROUND 11
hahahha
continue my ESSAYS!!
and I was so REFLECTING..
maybe giving up is the BEST way!!
then I will concentrate in my STUDIES!
and maybe save myself from some HEARTBREAK and TEARS
I am really TIRED!
i could be happy!!
i should be happy!!
i dun even know how to help myself
i just feel like crying my brains out
so that I will not think so MUCH
i am tired of believing
i always thought that if i keep believing everything will be okay
everything i thought will happen if I believe is not happening
All those memories must VANISH
They must!
It's VERY hard to let go!!!
my brain doesn't want to
but my heart cannot take another fall

NEXT YEAR!!
I must work HARD!!
No MATTER how HARD it is!!
I must end THIS PROBLEM before 2008
I MUST CONCENTRATE!!!
NOTHING's going to STOP ME!!
I must BRAIN WASH myself!
DEEP DOWN
I know
I dun want 2009 to START!!
But everything happen for a REASON!!
There is nothing to look FORWARD to!!
BUT
I know I have think POSITIVE!!
I must not be SAD over the PROBLEMS
I must give it to GOD!!
and think POSITIVE!!!
Remember :
LOOK UP
WAIT UP
RISE UP
(:

So to encourage MYSELF
I wrote LOTS of ENCOURAGING NOTES
and paste them EVERYWHERE
at my DESK and BED!
I shall show u CONCRETE evidence(:

MY DESK!!

YES!! I know!!
IT is MESSY!! (:(:

MY BED!! (:

HAHAHAAH!!
EVERYWHERE I go!!
I will bring these ENCOURAGEMENT everywhere too!!
hahahahaahah
GOT TO do my ESSAYS!!
I can finally SMILE!
Cause God is holding MY PROBLEMS
NOT me!!
YAY!!
(:(:(:(:(:

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I have NOTHING to say!

Monday, December 29, 20081:54:00 PM

HEY HEY!!! (:
It is very HARD for people to PLUCK up their courage to talk
and THIS ALIEN just dun seem to want to ANSWER them!!
It's annoying!
Especially when those people are trying so HARD already!!
And the ALIENS still REFUSE to continue the CONVERSATION!
Won't it makes u feel like BOXING or SLAPPING the ALIEN!!
I DO!!!
I REALLY DO!!!
So I am writing this SPECIALLY for the ALIEN!!!
PLEASE TALK!!!!!!!
OR I WILL SLAP U!!!
hahaha
JUST do SOMETHING!!
ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS!!!!
and OH!
I will be waiting!!!
hahaha

WELL this POST is random!
I know!!
But it makes me FEEL better!!
and there is NO HARM done either!!
SO YA!

Or next time!
I shall just SHUT UP!!
and not talk to the ALIEN ever AGAIN!!
hahaha (:
anger management...
OOPPS!
(:(:

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TWO DAYS

Sunday, December 28, 200812:58:00 AM

HEY HEY!!
I am finally back from my CAMP!!
hahahaahah
I am so TIRED!!
Its my last camp is CAMP CHRISTINE!!
hahaahha
Let me show u how the PLACE LOOK LIKE!! (:
THERE is a sun set!!!(:

Its BEAUTIFUL!!!
AND let me show u the BEDS!!
not as NICE as the SALVATION ARMY KIND!!
ahahaah
THE BEDS!!

THE PEOPLE!! JAS, JANICE, NATASSIA and ME!!

NATASSIA taking herself!! hahah(:(:

EZZAH at the BACK!!

MARIE going to SLEEP!! UNGLAM!

ME and JASMINE! (:

We definitely have FUN!!
the BBQ was GREAT!!
I love the HONEY GRILLED HOT DOGS!!!
YUMMY!!
LOVE it!!!
MASHMALLOWS were good too!!!
hahahaha

THEN on SAT!!
left the CAMP SITE at around 10.45
REACH school at around 11plus!
i slack in school cause too TIRED!!
so only left school at 12 plus!!
hahahhah
went to block 98 to pass EMMA my junior her poncho!!
and walked BACK with my very HEAVY BAG!!!!
hahahaha
I did not even get to REST!!
then had to just bathe and left for CHURCH!!
BUT I love going there!!
SO i dun mind!!
hahahahahaahaha

SATURDAY was just not a GOOD day for me!
i was so EMO!!
I know it was the 2 SENTENCES fault
IMAGINE!!
Just two sentences made me FALL FLAT on my FACE!!!
I was so sad.
My eyes will just water everytime i get reminded!!
then I have to run to the toilet!!
hahha
TO SAVE MYSELF OF THE EMBARRASSMENT!!
hahaahaha

It was BAD!!
I could hardly SMILE!!
PLUS, the constant need of checking of the TIME
is also DRIVING me NUTS!!
I could not really CONCENTRATE!!
I was like so STRESSED!!
It was TERRIBLE!!
BUT I gave everything to God now!!
So It is OKAY!!!!
I shall not be SAD over this matter!!
EVER AGAIN!

BUT the games was NICE!!
hahaahaha
I enjoyed it!
hahahaaha
I left for tuition like around 5.45!
hahaahahaha
the tuition is REALLY very BORING!!
I cannot take it!!
and since I did not eat my lunch!!
NO $$$
POOR!!!
I had GASTRIC!!
it was terrible can!!!
I thought I would FAINT somewhere!!
It was TERRIBLE!!
hahahahah

These are some PHOTOs we took on Christmas DAY!!
(:

The CAST of the SKIT!! (:

THE pretty GIRLS!!

THE GUYS. Ahem..

EVERYONE!!!
I love this PHOTO!!!
EVERYONE look so HAPPY and it is like a CANDID photo!!
everyone looking everywhere!!
hahaahahah

Today was AWESOME!!
the PASTOR was so GOOD!!!
and it was really very encouraging!!
I was really SAD over my dad!!
who told me today that today was the LAST TIME
i can go church on SUNDAY!!
I nearly just BREAK DOWN and cry!!
CAUSE I dun want to NOT go!!
PEOPLE are like LOOKING FORWARD for the NEXT YEAR?!
I am DRAGGING!!
CAUSE the second the clocks tick to 12am!!
MY FREEDOM is GONE!!!
I am like NOT ALLOWED to go ANYWHERE!!
IT IS PATHETIC!!

ANYWAY!!
THE trip to KFC for lunch was SO FUNNY!
although I did not eat MY LUNCH!!
hahahhah
ME, JOY, YOGES, DARYL, GIDEON, OLIVER and GERALD
was so HIGH in KFC!!
for the WRONG THINGS!!
hahaahhah
and WE played a PRANK on YOGES!!!
OLIVER and GIDEON did most of IT!!
He thought yoges to close her eyes and imagine something!!
then the REST of us left!!
leaving her alone at the TABLE
ahahahha
then she was like TALKING to NO ONE!!
while the REST of us were laughing OUTSIDE!!
haaahhahah
SUPER FUNNY!!!

I know NEXT YEAR will not BE a good YEAR for me!!
BUT I am still going to MOVE ONE
cause I will not DWELL on my differences
but give EVERYTHING to GOD
AND he will help me!!
I will be DOING everything using his STRENGTH
NOT mine!!
I must
LOOK UP!!
WAIT UP!!
RISE UP!!
and not GIVE UP!!
JOLENE CANNOT GIVE UP
JOLENE MUST NOT GIVE UP!
I can do all things through CHRIST who strengthens me.
(Philippians 4:13)
(:(:(:

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MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Thursday, December 25, 20083:27:00 PM

HEY HEY!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :):)
I think I wrote that sentence like 50 over times!!
hahaahah
CAUSE I wrote it in my CARDS!!
YEA...
TODAY,
I found OUT the REAL MEANING of CHRISTMAS!!
CHRISTMAS is not about FOOD, TURKEY(i know i love food),
Christmas TREE, HAM, CARDS.
NOO!!
CHRISTMAS is about JESUS!!!
About him being born to the earth.
to WASH our SINS
to GRANT us ETERNAL LIFE
to SET us FREE
ya!!
(:(:
They let us WATCH this VIDEO.
And I wonder where they get it from!!
VERY INSPIRING!!
It literally brought ME to TEARS
It is like God telling me to STAND FIRM,
to NOT GIVE UP just yet!
Although, I know I will not be able to come to CHURCH
that often NEXT YEAR!
and it is DRIVING me NUTS!!
I just cannot BELIEVE not being in church!!
I will have NOTHING.
NOTHING to look forward to?
I really dun know HOW I am going to SURVIVE!!

ANYWAY!
I am not going to think of THAT!!
These are the PHOTOS Rachel took at the MATCH!! (:

EVERYONE is concentrated at the MATCH!

DAVID talking to ME and JOY!! haha UNGLAM for him..

THE only few GIRLS who went to WATCH! plus ESTEE & AMANDA!!(:

THE CROWD was WOW! They look like rainbow bits of a DONUT!!
SORRY.. A bit HUNGRY(:

These PHOTO was to TAKE everyone!
BUT apparently, the people at the other SIDE dun want to be in it..
SOO YA!!
hahhahha(:(:

NOW that everyone got the CARDS!!
I can reveal some of THEM!
hahahaahah

It LOOKS NICE ya!!
If your name is not here, it should be with JOY!!
I cannot BELIEVE, I did all 51 NAMES!!
YEAH I counted..
hahahahaahah
It looks PRINTED right?
IT is actually NOT!!
I used some STENCIL with Letters on it!!
VERY TIRING can!!
hahahaahahhaha
But it was WORTH IT!!
YAY!!(:

I PURPOSELY hide the MESSAGE!!
HAHAHA!!

OHH OHH!
LAST night was AWESOME!!
I had a DINNER at my HOUSE!!
with all my relatives!
there were YUMMY chicken WINGS!!
I was eyeing at them for like the WHOLE time!!
I am like always HOLDING one WING in my HAND!
hahahaah
My mum was also TRYING to make CHEESE CAKE!!
it taste OKAY la!!
hahaahah
SO SO!!

THEN Joy like called me and
say that DEREK is planning a COUNTDOWN at OLIVER's house!!
I was LIKE cool!
hahahaahahaha
So ME and JOY met DEREK, AMOS, ESTEE and EZRA.
BEFORE going UP!!
hahahaha
It was FUN!
But I was STILL eating my CHEESE CAKE!!
AND AMOS SPRAYED some FOAM AT ME!!!
SO GOT FOAM IN MY CHEESECAKE!!
hahahahahaha
THAT was my FIRST CHRISTMAS COUNTDOWN
and it ROCKS!!
THE HOUSE was CROWDED!!
hahaahahah
We were like SINGING CHRISTMAS CAROLS!!
hahaahaha
Although I dun know ALOT!!
BUT WHO GUESS!!
JUST SING ALONG!!!
hahaahah(:(:

TODAY MORNING!!
I was LATE!!
SUPER!!
DUNNO WHY I ALWAYS LATE!!
I was supposed to wake up at 7.30am
to FINISH my last 10 CARDS!!
AND in the end
I woke up at 8.43am
I could still remember!!
CAUSE yesterday my sister exchange PHONE with me
so I SET the ALARM using her phone!!
DID not EXPECT her to CHANGE BACK SO FAST!!
so end up!
SHE GOT THE ALARM!!
AND I continue SLEEPING like a PIG!!
SO I and JOY had to do it in the BUS!!
I was JOKING with DEREK last night
that he may do the CARDS in CHURCH!!
IN THE END!!
It was me INSTEAD!!
hahahahahahahah

I GOT LIKE LOTS OF GIFTS AND CARDS!!!
LOVE ALL OF U WHO GAVE ME STUFF!!
PROUDLY, I shall NAME them ALL!!
I must THANK:
RACHEL, GLENDA, TRACY, YONGHUI, YOGES, NICOLE, AVELINE, AMANDA, AMOS, DEREK, MITCHELL, NOAH, ESTEE, JAVAN, JOVINA, JERI, JOYCE(my cousin)
If your name is not INSIDE, PLEASE TELL ME
CAUSE some GIFTS have no NAME!!
hILL KNOW WHO IS IT FROM!!
hahaahahahahaha
NEXT TIME MUST ALWAYS WRITE NAME LA!!!
SO PEOPLE WILL KNOW WHO IS IT FROM!!
(:(:
I LOVE U ALL!!
U ALL MADE MY FIRST CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION ROCK!!
hahahahhah

TAKE A GLIMPSE at it!!
THEY LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL!!
hahahahah
AND THANKS for the VERY VERY VERY ENCOURAGING MESSAGES!!
I will remember them FOREVER!!
(:
ANYWAY,
I am going for GUIDES LEADERSHIP RETREAT tomorrow!!
MY LEADERSHIP RETREAT IS IN A CAMP SITE LA!!
SO SAD!!
I WANTED A CHALET!!!
WILL BE BACK ON SAT!
IN THE AFTERNOON!!
CANNOT WAIT!!
hahahah (:(:

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The RUSH of HAPPINESS!

Tuesday, December 23, 20081:45:00 PM

H EY HEY
I know I have not BLOG for quite A LONG time!!
SO
I am going to START from the START!!
OHH anyway,
I am feeling MUCH BETTER now!!!
If u all did read my last POST, I really dunno wat to say!
I just felt TERRIBLE at that TIME.
BUT now, I can handle it!!
hahahaha
that last post is DELETED from my BLOG and from my MEMORY!
ahahahahah(:(:

OKAY!!
I shall start on SATURDAY!
YA!!
The WEDDING!!
My ex-senior's WEDDING was so SWEET!!
Although I have to appear in a very weird GUIDES UNIFORM!
It was so WORTH IT!!
hahahaahahaaha
They pair us up with some SCOUTS
from i dunno what school!!
BUT we were just supposed to lead CARS to the CARPARK!
and BE like some traffic person, I really dunno how to explain it!
the JOB was SUPER BORING!! and HOT!
We are like DYING of lack of OXYGEN!!
hahahahah
AFTER the sweating, we had to like SALUTE to the COUPLE
as they walk past!
I really dunno how to EXPLAIN it
BUT it was FUN!
OHH ya!!
We were also given GLOVES la!!
so that we look COOLER!!
it rocks!!
really!!
BuT i broke the button for one of the GLOVES!!
hahahaha TOO violent i guess(:
AH!! the FOOD was NICE too!! (:(:

THEN
after that it was already 1plus
so I decided to GO for tuition straight away
I took a bus i think 43 if I am not wrong
I was so TIRED that I fell asleep on the bus!!
I think I slept at like 2plus the night before can?
AND woke up at 6plus!!
Dunno how I could WAKE UP!
I came to church SUPER EARLY to sleep some more!!
Although it was quite HARD to, but at least rest my BODY lor
NO CHOICE!! hahaha
went for tuition at 4.30
it was BORING! had to CONSTANTLY wake myself UP!
Then met JOY to eat dinner at the BASEMENT foodcourt
AND met for the PLAY!!!
AGAINST ALL ODDS
THE acting was GOOD and funny
THE SINGING was AWESOME!
THE crews were BRILLIANT!
Everything WORKED out FINE!
And I am sure everyone ENJOYED it like TOTALLY!!
hahahaha

NOW SUNDAY!
I managed to go to CHURCH!!
ON TIME..
AND I love the SONGS!!
haha
then after that wanted to GO ORCHARD
But in the end, went home to REST!
and do SOME CHRISTMAS CARDS too!

AS u know, I LOVE SUNSETs!
so I saw this one with such a PRETTY SKYLINE.
THE streams of ORANGE was SIMPLY GORGEOUS!!
Then WENT for the SINGAPORE vs. VIETNAM match!
MANY PEOPLE from church came!!!
Me, JOY, YOGES, RACHEL, AMANDA, ESTEE, AMOS, DARYL, DEREK MITCHELL,EDISON, OLIVER, JEREMY, GIDEON, ERZA, UNCLE QUENTIN, UNCLE FELIX, DAVID, JOEL, JUSTIN and YOGES's BRO AND FRIEND(:
It was my FIRST TIME watching a match like LIVE.
and the experience SHOCKED me!
THAT we singaporeans will resort to vulgarities to calm down
ANGER!
although we didn't.
BUT many DID.
all the bad words that I dun even KNOW came out from all DIRECTIONS
It was terrible.
The match was GOOD though.
YES Singapore never win. But its okay!!
It doesn't mean we have to WALK out of the stadium
BLACK-FACED!! hahaha
I was SMILING like CRAZY!!
It was very CROWDED outside, so I think people will think
I am CRAZY to be STILL so HAPPY since Singaporean lost.
ALL the GIRLS sat in UNCLE Felix's car to EUNOS MRT.
It was late so I didn't get to eat SUPPER!!
My STOMACH was complaining by then.
It was dying since its OWNER did not feed it DINNER and SUPPER!
I was dreaming of my TOM YAM noodles but in the end,
I only ate some Tang Yuan( my chinese is TERRIBLE)
AND I continued with my CARDS till 2 plus again!!
I was like STILL hungry but FORCED myself to SLEEP!!
hahahaha

The NEXT DAY!
MONDAY!!
I woke up LATE! I totally could not hear my ALARM!
WOKE up 11.13am, when I was supposed to reach
TAMPINES SERVICE CENTRE at 12pm!!
I was like DIE.
JOY also woke up at the same time as me.
so IN the END came at 12.45pm
hahaaha
WE were IN CHARGE of the FOOD.
So we had to go to FAIRPRICE like THRE times
and COOK like SUPER OILY FOOD!!
ALL I saw was OIL OIL OIL

YES
It LOOKS YUMMY
IT TASTES YUMMY

I have to SAY my FUNNY STORY of Ribena drink
U know I dun drink RIBENA
AFTER some FRYING,
the person in charge told me to make RIBENA
I WAS LIKE OHNO!
I dunno the concentration and
the explanation in the LABEL was NOT helping AT ALL!
SO I TRY MY LUCK!!
hahaahahaah
I kept on TASTING the drink and gave some to JOY
When I felt it was SWEET.
they were like NOT SWEET at all!!
So I put like ALOT ALOT!!
I felt so BAD!!
I felt like I am killing them of sweetness.
TO ME IT WAS LIKE SUPER SWEET CAN!!!

It was a CHRISTMAS PARTY!!
the CHILDREN WERE so ADORABLE!

THE brownies were GOOD and NICE to admire!!

ME and JOY love CHRISTMAS TREEs!! (:

AND this BOY is super FUNNY!
When I was serving the DRINKS, he took like 6 cups of them!
AND HE gave me the PEN I was holding(:(:
AND I think I was too BUSY that I forgot I have a DINNER at night
so when I receive a call from my mum
I was wondering why she so ANGRY!
hahhahaahaha
then I realised It was 6plus already and I had to reach
my dad's friend's house at 7!!
I was LATE!!
hahahahah
I was like JOY I know why they so ANGRY
Cause I have a dinner now!
hahahaha
I must really thank God for letting me reach home first
before my DAD!
hahahaha
we had some HAM, CHICKEN, SALAD!
IT was GOOD!!
but because I forgot I had this dinner
I ate alot at the party so I was pretty full at the start of the DINNER!!
BUT u know
I will still EAT!!
so ya!!
I ate to my FULLEST FILL!!
OHH here is some PHOTOS I took with my SISTER!!

and even at this VERY MOMENT!!
AS I TYPE!!
I am STILL EATING the HAM leftovers.
I dun know why I am always eating YESTERDAY's LEFTOVERS
FOR LUNCH!
hahaahahah
OHH!
I am PLANNING to eat my TOM YAM NOODLES after my HAM!!
hahaahahha
YAY!!
hahahaha
Its been a super long POST!
But I am GLAD u all still read it!!
LOVES (:(:

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