I want to be as FREE as Bubbles!
I know it is really not very suitable!
But still!

I really want to be like everyone else that can go CHURCH with their familes!!
having their parents going for service with them!
Bringing them home from church!
talking to them about GOD
encouraging them to go church!
Just think of the opposite...
That is wat's happening to me!

Yes!
The Bible told me not to envy others
but I just cannot help it!
especially those who have their WHOLE family in the house of GOD!
It is so HEART-WARMING!!
I can sense the CLOSE-NESS!!
and it is just so sweet!

okay!!
let me FACE THE FACTS!
At least dun STOP me from going can??
I just want to go to PRAISE my GOD.
I never even ask u to come?
Why are u so against it?
I cannot find any reasons?
Why??

Why do I have to always feel FEAR in my heart when I go church?
worrying that u will scold me?
why?
Worrying that u will STOP me from going FOREVER!
U just dun know how much this mean to me?
I cannot live without it?
dun u understand?
I am praying for VICTORY!
God will give me victory!!
I just know it!
It will happen somehow!
It is just a matter of time!
i will WAIT and TRUST in GOD!
God is the BEST THING I have right now!!
At least I know that even if I am not allowed to go church!
God will bring the church to me!
I can worship everywhere!
because God is in ME!!
ALWAYS(:
God,
Bring me closer to you!
draw me near.