love the way you smile (:

PROBLEM SOLVING!!!

Saturday, November 29, 200811:42:00 AM

HEY hey!!
I am so EXCITED for today!!!
There is YPS!!
And it felt like ages that I never enter CHURCH!!
My mood are very HIGH!!
And I am feeling so GAY!!!
I am ALL READY to worship GOD!!
but HAVE to count down!!
2 hours and 45 minutes more!!!!!
SIGH!!!
hahahaahaahah
NO
I am actually counting down to 301
But nevermind!!
I still have to rush after church for my FAMILY FRIEND's DINNER!!
hahahahaahh

OH NO!!
I haven' t PAY for my CAMP!!!!
I think I have to USE my own $$$ la
My mum in church!
I cannot ask my MUM to give me the $$$
I think I shall just replace it when she give me
hahahaha
YAY!!
ANOTHER COUNTDOWN to
CHURCH CAMP!!
hahahaahahahaha
yay!

OHH OHH!!
YESTERDAY!
hahhaahahaahah
was a problem SOLVING day!
me and JOY met to EAT prawn MEE
hahahaha
then WE bought some CHIPS and bubble tea
and we went to JOY's house void deck to DISCUSS!!
hahahahaha
then I went to BUT another bubble tea!!
hahahahaah
I AM SUCH A PIG!!
EAT SO MUCH la!

then I rushed home to do my PHSICS HW for tuition later
haahaaha
FOR TUITION!
I earned ANOTHER BUBBLE TEA!!!
cause me and FRIEND got the ans for the QUESTION!
I think my tuition teacher thought that question very hard
so she give reward!
hahahaahahaha

SO IN TOTAL!!!
3 BUBBLE TEA!!
OH MY!
I already FEEL so FULL!!
I feel like a WATER BUCKET!!
hahahaha
A REAL BIG ONE!!!
(:

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SO SWEET!!

Thursday, November 27, 200812:04:00 PM

This PHOTO is the SWEETEST thing EVER!!!!
hahahahaahhaaha

Anyway.
I have tuition LATER!!
AHHHHHH!!
I am SUPER SUPER lazy to go!!!!!
AND I have not done the work YET!!
that's WORST!
hahahaahahahaha

AND,
CHURCH CAMP is COMING!!!
yay!!!
BUT I told myself!
I must finish ALL my holiday HW before CAMP!!
hahahaha
so after my CAMP!!
I can start REVISING!!
ALL my sec 3 STUFF!!!!
ALOT LA!!!!
hahahaha
stress stress
positive positive
haha

I really need to GO CRAZY next year
PULL UP MY SOCKS!!!
PULLLLL!!
PULLLLLLLLLLL!!!
hahahhaha
JOLENE is can DO it!!
JIA YOU!
hahaas

I find this SONG very fitting with watever I am thinking now!
hahahaha
so I shall show u the LYRICS!
ON FIRE
They tell you where you need to go
Tell you when you need to leave
Tell you what you’ll need to know
Tell you who you need to be

But everything inside you knows
There’s more than what you’ve heard
So much more than empty conversations
Filled with empty words

And you’re on fire
When he’s near you
You’re on fire
When he speaks
You’re on fire
Burning at these mysteries

Give me one more time around
Give me one more chance to see…
Yeah
Give me everything you are
Give me one more chance to be near you
Ah yeah

When everything inside me looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I’ll take

When I’m on fire
When you’re near me
I’m on fire
When you speak
And I’m on fire
Burning at these mysteries
Mysteries... (mysteries)
Mysteries…
(Mysteries)

(You’re on fire, you’re on fire)
I’m standing on the edge of me (you’re on fire)
I’m standing on the edge of me
I’m standing on the edge of me
I’m standing on the edge of me
I’m standing at the edge of everything I’ve never been (you’re on fire)
And I’ve been standing at the edge of me, standing on the edge…(you’re on fire)

And I’m on fire
When you’re near me
I’m on fire
When you speak
Yeah
I’m on fire
Burning at these mysteries...
These mysteries…
These mysteries…
Yeah oh… mysteries…
You’re a mystery…
Dear Heavenly Father,
Help me and prepare me for the major exams next year
I am very scared, but I know u will make me do well.
God make me hardworking and determined for the exams
so that I can get good results and make u proud.
Amen.

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POSITIVE under pressure!!

Wednesday, November 26, 20082:38:00 PM

I am GOING CRAZY!!
I am SO STRESSED now!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
It is really very hard to be POSITIVE under pressure!!!
I think that is my WEAKNESS!!
hahahahahahh
ONE BIG BAD weakness!!
I am BEHIND my TAWG!!
ohh no!
I must also do my SS!
Got a lot to do!!
and AMATHs!!
and GG!!

next year is O levels!!!
OH NO!!
I am freaking out!
I really wonder how those who did their Os
did their Os?
hahahahhaahah

very FAST ah!!
SUPER!!
next thing u know!
I am getting MARRIED!!
hahaahahahhaha
hahaahahahahaa
I must make sure I keep this BLOG till then!!
hahaahh
ohh!
And I will buy furniture from IKEA!
yay!!!!
hahahahahahahaaha
YAY!

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Hair EXTENSIONS!

Tuesday, November 25, 200811:54:00 PM

This is another SUNSET!
But this time!!
My mum TOLD me to take this SUNSET!
hahahaha
EVEN my mum knows I like SUNSET!!
haahahahahah
FUNNY! (:

OKAY!
Today was GREAT!!
I overSLEPT!
How great is that!!?
I was supposed to meet JOY at 12pm!!
AND YET!
I woke up at 12pm!
hahahahaah

I woke up, check my watch!
and flattened my hair
and say OH NO!!
hahah
AND went back to SLEEP!
hahahaaha
For another 5 minutes!
Couldn't TAKE it!!

Me, JOY, YOGES and RACHEL were supposed to follow
YOGES to PUT hair extensions!!
(:
Yoges LOOKs so PRETTY!
hahaahahaahah
She has PINK and purple STRANDS in her HAIR!
haahahaha
ME and JOY wanted to put SAME COLOR and at SAME PLACE!
but in the end
We DIDN'T!!
hahahahahaah
CAUSE the auntie is CHINESE!!
I have to KEEP on telling the AUNTIE
YOGES wants only FOUR STRANDS!!!!
hahaahahahaah
THE auntie keeps on putting SIX STRANDS???
maybe she wants to EARN MORE $$$
hahahaahah

then RACHEL left for her GRANDMA's house!
WHILE the rest of us went to MACs
AND have a CHIT CHAT session
ABOUT ****
hhahahaahahaha
very FUNNY!!
I kept on EATING!!!
and EATING!!!
and EATING!!!
and EATING!!!
first a COKE
then a PACKET of FRIES
I think I would have BOUGHT MORE
if I have the $$$$
ahhahahah

So our PLANS to buy PJ for camp
WAS CANCELLED
a bit waste $$$$ rite?
hahaahaha

Then JOY and I have to rush HOME
cause I forgot to TAKE IN the CLOTHES at my house
hahahahaha
but it was BRIGHT SUN!!
Thank GOD!
hahaahhahah
or my MUM will kill me!

CAME home just in time
to HELP my mum with the FOOD!
hhaahahaha
CAUSE my family friend CAME
and my mum is panic-ing!
hahahah

then I also got to MISS my tuition!!
hahahahhaaha
yay!!
very LAZY go!!
hahaha
and the CHANNEL U 10pm show
VERY NICE!
hahaahahaah
okay....
....
....
....
RANDOM RANDOM!
hahahaha
Dear God,
tell me when is the right time to tell the truth
I am not sure how long I can keep in my heart??
I just dun have the courage to tell.
I am not so daring.
i will give it all to u
and follow your plans for me.
God lead me
Amen.

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My ONE DAY TRAVEl tour!

Monday, November 24, 200811:20:00 PM

I took this while WAITING for the shuttle BUS back home!
The stream of orange is NICE!!

HEY HEY!!
I am SO TIRED!
hahahaahah

Today ROCKS!!
FIRST!
we went to SEE rachel dye her HAIR!!
OH rachel!
if u are reading!!
DUN WORRY!!!
The colour will get better!!!
I HOPE!
smile!!
(:
dun be SAD over your HAIR!(:

Then we went to RACHEL and JOY's face doctor!
I dun even know why me and YOGES go??
We are not even going to see the FACE doctor!!
That shop is like SUPER CROWDED!!!
hahahahaha
then we waited for like 2 hours!!
so our plans to go to PS was crushed!!
hahahaha
So we decided to go IKEA!!!
hahahahaha
but we reach at 6 plus!!
so we spend like 15minutes EATING HOTDOGS!!
love it!
then we like rushing through IKEA!
cause I have to reach home back 7?
ahaahahahh
did not REALLY enjoy my TRIP there!!
hhahaahahaha
then we WAITED for the shuttle service!!
the waiting PLACE is very SMELLY!
hahahhahaah
In the END!
I reach home at 8 plus!
hahahahahaha
cause I still needed to return my BOOKS!
hahahaah
I shall let the photos EXPLAIN it self!
hahahaahahah
ENJOY!!
I shall make it in order!!
I got LOTS of PHOTOS!
(:

On the BUS to the FACE DOCTOR!

WHILE waiting for the QUEUE to reach us at the KFC

The FACE CLINIC very long queue la!!

FINALLY!! Consulted the FACE doctor!! at the BACK of the clinic!! (:

IKEA toilet!

White ROSES is the SWEETEST THINGS in the WORLD!!

where is my FLOWER?

TINY!

RED CUSHION is NICE!

CRAZY PEOPLE!

I LIKE THE LIGHTS!

JOY? I am speechless!

CHEERS!?

OUR ideal LIVING ROOM!! PURPLE is everything!

OKAY!!
that is all I have!
All I have left is the UNGLAM ones
NOO WAYY!
Am I going to SHOW it!
hahahaha
Dear God,
I am glad I have so nice friends with me!
I really have to thank you for that.
Amen.

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My PAST is talking to me!!

1:01:00 AM

Just now just finished my TAWG!!
And since I have extra TIME!!
11.30!!
not a lot of time actually!
I on my laptop again!!??
hahahahahahahhaa
Because I wanted to read about some crap!
Then I was looking at her BLOG and
I found it interesting!!
So I went back to SEE my BLOG!!
From the start!!

I realised my ENGLISH improved!!!
now there is lesser
LA LOR MEH AH!
hahahahaha
so funny!

When reading, I really feel like going back to the PAST!!
about that incident with that PRIMARY SIX CRUSH of mine!!!
that I have finally forgotten!
haha

I also realised I was so CHEERFUL and HAPPY!!
AFTER KNOWING GOD!!
everything changed!!
i remember one time at CHURCH!
I asked God to heal all my pain of my LOVE CRUSHES!!
And then I knew I was actually so upset that I went into
DEPRESSION over a GUY!??!
IMPOSSIBLE!!!

God HEALED my depression!!!
HOORAY!!
then slowly from nov!!
I realised!!
I grew SAD again!
why??
OVER GUYS!!
WHY oh WHY??
always like that??

so I TOLD MYSELF!!
I must be that INNOCENTLY HAPPY AND CHEERFUL OVER EVERYTHING
JOLENE!!
not the SAD and depressed OVER DUMB GUYS
JOLENE!!
I am going to put HIM behind me!!!
I be MYSELF!!
BE CHEERFUL AGAIN!!!

AND HAVE MY NO CRUSH CAMPAIGN STANDING again!!
I am going to go CRAZY!!
I know that NOTHING or NO ONE is GOING to bring me back to SADNESS!!
I RULE!!

SMILE SMILE SMILE!!!
BE MYSELF jolene!!
BE the HAPPY jolene!!
hahahaha
lol
I feel so HAPPY!!
everytime I feel SAD!!
I am so GOING to look back at MY HAPPY DAYS!!
and I know that HAPPINESS is much better than sadness
hahahaha
WHY SHOULD I BE SAD WHEN I CAN BE HAPPY!!
and sometimes being myself will give me SO MUCH MORE benefits!!
hahahahaahahah
I am so GLAD
I WOKE UP from sadness!!
yay-ness!!
MY ADVICES to those who are SAD!!
DUN be!!
LOOK AT your HAPPY DAYS!!
and u will know that it is STUPID to be SAD!!

SMILE everyone!!
CHEESE!!!
(:

It is ONE AM!!
and I am still here!?
OH NO!!
I have to meet JOY early tomorrow!!
NITE-ties!!
(:
hahha!
I guess my BLOGSKIN does not make sense ANYMORE!!
I have to CHANGE IT man!!
this is a very sudden though to change blogskin!
random JOLENE maybe not thinking RIGHT!!
wat to do!
it is 1 am?
hahahahahaa
(:

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I am BACK to normal!!

Sunday, November 23, 20081:04:00 PM

HELLOs!!
I am BACK to NORMAL!!
I dunno why I am always thinking of STUPID stuff that will NEVER happen!
And making myself SUPER SAD!!
and DEPRESSED!!
until I get DEPRESSION again!!!
HOW CAN I LET ONE ANNOYING HUMAN RUIN MY LIFE!!!!
JOLENE!!!
U can be better than THAT!!??
especially when that human does not BOTHER!!
maybe he is actually enjoying HIMSELF!
EATING TO HIS fill!!
AND u!
crying your HEART out!!??
It does not make SENSE!!??
hahahaha
That felt GOOD!
REAL GOOD!

ANYWAY!
I am enjoying my weekend!!
and super happy that he DOES NOT EXIST!!!!
hahahahaha
i am GLAD that God gave me a WAKE UP CALL!!!
and I WOKE up!!!
I finally get it NOW!!
I just have to KEEP on REMINDING myself!!

hahahaha
i getting all excited!!!
hahahaahah
I survived!!!!
hahahahaha
I think no one understands wat i mean!
hahahahahah

but NEVERMIND!
(:

Today
I did not get to go to church!!
My dad did not leave for work!
So I cannot leave either!!
hahahahahaha
SO ANNOYING!!
But I just have to look at the BRIGHT side!!!
I must be POSITIVE UNDER PRESSURE!!
Stay calm and be PATIENT!!!
cause God will make a way for me SOON!!
hahaha
yay!
I used to be very ANGRY and CRAZY la!!!
but I learned to CONTROL!!!!
hahahahaaha yay!!!
U can do it!!
JOLENE!!
JIA YOU!!!
(:

OhOH!!
I also went to RACHEL's house on FRIDAY!!!
HERE are some PICS!!

ME, JOY and RACHEL eating dough!!

JOY, ME and YOGES!!

The progress!!

the MAKING!

LITTLE dots!!!

Dirty HANDS.. ..

I guess we were very AMAZED with our DIRTY HANDS!!

the BACK PEOPLE are so DUMB!!! hahaha they were supposed to be DETECTIVES!!

GROUP PHOTO!!

while waiting for the cookies

This is how we entertain ourselves!! (:(:

Dear God,
Thank you for telling everything
answering my questions!!
I will seek your advices and be patient
and calm
Amen

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Heart Breaking!!!

Thursday, November 20, 20082:05:00 PM

It is really HEART breaking!!
I dunno wat!!
My heart just dun want to tell me!!
I still cannot imagine!
I cried all the way home!!!
embarrassing!!
I know tat when I think of u, u will be there
especially at the food court!!
I never ever expect u to be there!!
but u appear!
Why can't I open up!!
Why I am keeping everything inside!
maybe that's why I will cry that much!!
Is hating u making me love u more!!!
i am tired!
very tired of waiting and comforting myself
all the time!!!
I dun wan to pretend anymore!!!
I must stop myself from imagining
u are different from my imagination!!
far from it!!!

haha
Sometimes crying out is a good way to distress
I always believe that if that someone is causing me too much sadness
i must give him up!!
But this time
it is HARD!!
I dunno why I cannot do it!!!!

OKay!
Let's talk about yesterday!!
hahahahaha
I had my tuition brought early!
so that I can go church!!
hahahaha
My tuition was suppose to end at 5.30
yet it ended at 4.30!
so I went to church SUPPER early!!

WALK aroung BORDERS for like an hour!!!
And collected my Mum's jeans ans came back to CHURCH!
and that LIPING and YOGES still have not reached!!
HANG around!!
till they come!!
went down to the basement foodcourt!!
TO MAKAN!!
yay!!
YUMYUM!!
then went for service!!!
although it feels WEIRD
cause i never worship for quite long!!
I feel bad!!
I just GAVE my ALL!
hahahaha
then when SERVICE ended!!
I HAD TO GO BACK HOME ALONE!!!
ALONE!!
nevermind!!
It is not even the FIRST TIME!!
hahahahaahaha

AND I miss JOY!!!!!
Joy faster COME back form MALAYSIA!!!!!!
ahh!!
I need to pour my HEART out to U!!!
I am going to BURST any time!!

I MUST STOP IMAGINING!!!
and here I am!
BLOGGING today!
Since like AGES!!
hahaha
Must do my TAWG!!
never do for AGES!
feel very guilty!!!
hhahahaha
yay!!!
hahahaahhahahah
Still mending my heart!!

God
I know u know me inside out!
heal me!
If he is not the one,
tell me God!!
Dun let him hurt me more!!!
I will obey and listen to your every word!
Amen.

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My LAST camp is OVER!

Monday, November 17, 20089:58:00 AM

HELLOs!!!
I am back with DISGUSTING TAN LINES
it is TERRIBLE!!
It is very very obvious!!!
OH NO!!!

okay!!
CAMP REFLECTION!!
haha
I think this camp is the MOST fun!!
hahahah
And I never CRY in this camp!!!!!
GREAT!!!!
AND I survived CAMP with runny nose and sore throat!!
in fact, I am STILL having it NOW!!
hahahahaha

Although this is not the last time at CAMP CHRISTINE,
this is the last CAMP!!!
hahahaha
At least there is leadership retreat!!!
hahahahahaha
yay!!
haahahhahaha

I think the only thing I can remember about the camp
is BLOWING fire!!
hahahahaha
I do that like 3times a day to cook our very weird meals!!
I think I am out of breath already!!
hahahaha

I was so tired at camp!!
that I did not have the strength to blog last night!!
I slept through from 7plus to 9 the next morning can??
WOW!!
without dinner!!!
hahahaha
COOL!!

Okay!!
Now I am hungry!!
better DIG for something to EAT!!!!
hahahahaha
Dear God,
Thank you for latting me enjoy such a great camp!!
Amen.

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Tuesday, November 11, 20083:08:00 PM

The PINK SKY is really gorgeous!

The NINE freedom days are ending!!
which also means that my camp is NEARING!!!
I really really dun want it to come!!!
I keep telling myself!
It is just 4 days of terror!!
and it will be the END of the week when it ends!
But it is not helping!!
After this camp!!
I will have no more CCA!
and besides this is my LAST camp!!
Why am I not cherishing it!!

I have not even PACK my camp BAG!!!
I guess its been three years!!
and everything been the same!!
I think every year, we use the same pack list to pack!
hahahahahahahahaha
I feel very UNSECURE!!
cause my parents are not here with me
and when they come back, it is only like 14 before I leave for my CAMP!!
I just dun like the FEELING!!

I also have not done a LOT of CAMP stuff!
and GOT a SORE THROAT!!
I thinking I am freaking out,
and I am freaking my BODY out too!!!!!!
Dear God,
Help me concentrate on my TAWG!
I have not done alot!!
and give me the courage for my camp!!!!
and help me stay healthy
and get rid of my sore throat!
Amen.

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The WEEK is OVER!!!

Monday, November 10, 20081:16:00 PM

THOSE flowers are JUST AWESOME!!!!

I SURVIVED!!!!!
hahahahahaha
This WEEK is the most TIRING WEEK in my LIFE
I got lots of STUFF that I dun know where to start
hahahahaha!!!
this photo is taken at SJI!!!
We were learning how to do large- scale pioneering!!
hahahahahaha
It was so DIFFERENT from the GUIDES's pioneering!
haha
We had to make a 2 storey STRUCTURE!!
COOL huh!!!!!
hahahahaha
I only took one photo with my phone!!
will get the rest SOON!!!

This is YESTERDAY's DINNER!! (:
YUM

On SUNDAY,
Had CHURCH!!
ahahaha
I went there EARLY!!!
like wow!!
FINALLY!!
and I took this two EATING!!
they look SO LOVELY!!!!!
hahahahahahahaha

AND me and RAC got so angry over it!!
hahahaahahahaha

THIS is actually JOY and ME!!
but cannot really see!!!
We were waiting for AVELINE and AMANDA's family! (:
Then we rushed to SAM's confirmation!!!
hahahahaahha
pretty pretty!!
here are some PHOTOS!
We got even more!
I will upload SOON!!

hahahaha
I am starting to feel stressed about CAMP!!!
PATROL IDENTITY
PATROL FLAG
and the
FOOD!!
I feel like dying!!
I just feel like going CRAZY!!!!!!!!
hahahaha
some one SAVE me!!!!!
I think I am going to miss CHURCH!!
I will not be going for SAT and SUN this week!!
BECAUSE OF MY GUIDES CAMP!!!
ahhhhhh
why must put it on WEEKENDs!!!
hahahahaha
Dear God,
Help me go through this week of camp!!
I am very nervous! and Scared!
strengthened me and keep me calm.
Amen.

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