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Allmyunspokenwords
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JOLENE TAN (:
14 September

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Harborlight Church & LIVEWIRE

Nanyang Polytechnic
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The LORD is my strength and my shield; My heart trusted in Him, and I am helped;Therefore my heart greatly rejoices,And with my song I will praise Him. - Psalm 28:7

The joy of the Lord is my strength.

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Looking at my past, makes me stronger for the future.
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he did not even knew me
Friday, June 29, 200711:14:00 PM
yesterday,
I saw him online
so i like try to talk to him by
typin watever i want to say to him by the nick name
then he like no react
so i was like
okay

so i went to talk to him real
i was like
are u still going for the tuition
that was at i say
then he was like huh??
so i continued
he kept on asking me
who am I???

then i realised that
he did not even know me
i like tried to find him for so long
and e do not even know me
i was like so sad

so i wrote him everything
on the tuition time
till
now
i was typing and like ......
then i was pouring my heart out okay
i just throw i out
i was like telling him the truth
EVERYTHING

then i was like
" i said wat i wanted to say"
"bye"

like that
then i went offline
and off my computer

i was like
i was looking for him for so long
and it was because i lose my phone
or i could already to him again
i was so sad

i cannot believe
that i was suffering and he was having fun
wat the hell!

Dear Y** J**,
i know that
wat i said was quite
evil
but i will *****************

hope
u know who i am!

Today got meeting
must take over My PL
so very stressful
did i skit
was terrible

we also did marching
very tiring
i nearly died

okay
got to go
Jolene ):
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The rush day
Thursday, June 28, 20072:17:00 PM
I was supposed to do a list things today
Which is ;
1. i was suposed to do my crime prevention poster
2. crime prevention logbook
3. 4 Cajs

All the home work all very hard one can!!!
i was like
have to rush like shit
to finish all in time la

then my friend told me that
the poster and the poster to be past up by next tuesday!!
I was like
so so happy la!!!!!

OKAY
I AM LIKE VERY LAZY TO BLOG NOW

Tomorrow got Guides meeting la
I very excited la
very very

i also very scared la
haha
how??

okay
got to go already

Jolene (:
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Why am I that blur ah??
Wednesday, June 27, 20073:13:00 PM


Today is like


very sleepy


hahaha


Today dun have standard tests!!!!!!!


Yayness!!!!!




so we went for home econs


i was excited


dun ask me how i look like in my apron and stuff!!!


hahhs


but then the teacher say


we are not cooking today


then i was so sad!!!!


i wanted to cook


how sad??




then we went for break


then we went for chinese lesson


our chinese quite boring hahhs


but sometimes can be quite funny


but i still respect him




cause he asked us whether we want extra lessons


then we dun want meh


but we quite kept quiet


but one girl


say she dun want


rite into his face


HOW RUDE


i was like??


that girl got manners or not??


cannot say nicer meh?


i was like angry la




then we have science lesson


okay nothing much to say


then we have english


we were supposed to like tell the class our answers


very weird


haha




then school end!!!!


yay


then i dun know why


i receive a sms


that my tuition is on


2.30pm


then i went there la


then the teacher then told me


no it was 5.30pm


i was like


i am so blurr!!!!!!




ah ya


very embarrassing la


so i like came back


haha


so i like talking to my computer again


haha


okay




later my tuition will be all guys la!!!!


no girls la


ah ya


ALL NOT CUTE ONE LA


NERDS!!!!


haha


i am so bad!!!


sorry ah??




okay


have to do work already!!!


jolene (:





this is two PEOPLE using my phone to take picture! hahhs. Rachel and Shakira (:



that is me and Shakira!! (:
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Wat a Day???
Tuesday, June 26, 20075:02:00 PM
Today was a terrible day.
I am so tired la
And everyday
u go to school to stone at the teachers
cause they have not start teaching yet??

today, my lit teacher never come to school
i also never bring her holiday homework
so i can only say
I am very lucky!!!!!!

I have like a lot of tasks to finish today
At first, i have to give the money to the finance office.
tHen i have to let a teacher sign my book
I like know i have a lot of project to do by Friday
but i am really very lazy to start la
no mood also

I like have not get into the study mood yet
i guess i need some time
to get use to it
maybe i need alot of time
haha
i will not be susprised
haha

I am looking forward to guides meeting
i am like so excited
not because ...........
but i somehow miss the meeting thing
we just had camp
and it was very tiring
so meetings are more
RELAXING
I can say......

i really pray that i will be able to pass up my project by friday
the list of thing i need to pass up on friday ;
1. Crime Prevention Logbook
2.Crime Prevention Poster
3. four CAJs :(

I just hate CAJs a lot
I just writing
it is so boring..........
the logbook and poster is like so hard to start doing
but i know i must do it somehow
how i wish i have ...... ....
haha

okay,
must like start doing my list of work......

Jolene :)
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Monday, June 25, 20074:19:00 PM
Kay,
Today is the first day of school again haha
It is damn bad
I feel that my school people are very weird
they just love to act cool
i was like??
very fun meh??

I today actually have COH
Then i so dumb forgot about it!!!
My first COH meeting la
okay
so next time
I must remember 7am
I actually came earlier la
so i can actually go fo the meeting in time
just because
i forgot about the whole thing

How embarrassing!!!!
School was okay
First day of school
usually
they will not scold
haha

They also introduced new teachers
to us la
got one came to this school before
very funny looking
his nickname is chicken little

hahahahaha
Later i have tuition
how very lazy go!!!
I later must also ask the others

Okay,
my parents are coming back already

Bye
Jolene:)
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Wat I am doing?????????
Sunday, June 24, 20073:17:00 PM
I really wonder wat I am doing??
Like Wat the???
I saw him online today!!!!
I am like so excited??
Then I suddenly thought
Must go back and study......
So I went back to my work....
But i really wanted to talk to him la??
How??
Every now and then
I will like go and see whether he is still there.
then he like just sign out la
Like wat???
so since he sign out
then i type to him la
like so lame!!!!

Then afterwards,
he sign back in la
I was like??
wat??
hahahahahaha

I really dun know wat to say??
But i scared he sign out la!!
How???
Why can't he start first la??
Must i start one la?!
I was like wondering
maybe he sign back in to talk to me??
Maybe??
But wat if it is not la??
How embarrassing??

But really want to talk to him la??
How how??
I scare he sign out and never sign in anymore la??
How??
How ??

If i talk to him first is it very thick skin huh??
I feel very leh??
Should I
or should not??

okay,
watching something??

Bye?
Jolene
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Saturday, June 23, 200712:54:00 AM



I am very shocked when i recently read his blog. About him being beaten by his dad.


i was like WAT??


I had this dream that he got beaten by my dad can??


like wat a dream??


I really felt like giving up already!!!!


and i dun even talk to him


never


maybe too shy la


wat to do??




last time so young


but i just realised that it is hard to accept that he always seem to be beaten


but he still smile so sweetly??


very funny leh??


it somehow hurts when he himself


dun like his parents


that is funny??


it really hurt when i read it


then he was so innocent la


poor thing


he is damn blur la




okay........


I really want to talk to him la


but like how???


must be thick skin a bit!!


haha




Lets talk about something else


we went to the civil defence place


and i got very amaze with this thing
that is Anne pictures!!!(:

i very tired already
i just want to say that want to sleepy!
Good nites
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Wednesday, June 20, 20075:27:00 PM
OKay, I just came back from camp!!!
Like Hello!!!!
okay very tired

but nevermind

I am like changing patrols
soon
which is from today onwards
I will definitely
miss my current patrol
I will miss u lots!!!!
like really......
cause my new patrol
will be very stressful can

for the past three days
are like SHIT.........
I did not sleep well
cause it is camp
and like being PS
can kill
like watever
the patrol done wrong
will have to get scolded
like wat.....

Let me like tell u the 'happenings' in the camp

FIRST DAY
we had to set all those tents up
so that we can sleep in
then we must also build the kitchen shelter
to cook for the company
i like tried so hard to do the fire can....
blow blow and BLOW
also cannot light
so we were so slow in cooking the food haha
how funny!!
of course.......

SECOND DAY
we had all those activit
first we had outdoor cooking
we had to cook pizza, season the chicken,garlic bread, and bread puddy
okay for your information
it is under fire from wood that we set up
NOT A STOVE!!!
i was supposed to start the fire
so have to pull out the grass patches
and make it deep enough
for us to cook
then set fire
i put a lot of punk and kindlings
in the end it lighted
and i am so proud of myself
so we cook it and eat it
the garlc bread and pizza is okay
but got pepper in the pizza
the chicken was so freakly hard and the bread puddy look nice
but not really
but wat to do just eat lor

then we had wide games
like treasure hunt like that

then we had campfire
it was very boring
cause we were already so tired la
we did patrol item
and the camp fire like finish
so sad

then it was already like 9 plus to 10
and i like have not bathe
any everyone else bathe already except some of the other PS
i felt so tired can
then the teachers say still cannot bathe yet
,must go for inspection and COH
so we like bathe at over 11
so long la
then the seniors say look very pale
like of course la
bathe so late
although not their fault

but i was really very tired
and i felt so sick la
like going to die like that

THIRD DAY
we just had to put down the tents and clear up the things

very lazy to write somemore
my patrol won Best Patrol la
So So happy la
never expect it

okay
have to go and sleep now
oh i will die..........
Jolene
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That PERSON pls go online!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, June 17, 20078:11:00 PM
Today is the day before camp!!!
and it is father's day
i did not buy anything for my dad!!!
I just finish my renovation
and I finally have a hot shower and a toliet!!!
But it will be so soon when i have to go for my camp!!!
How sad!!
I like keep on going online
cause the person i am waiting to be online is not coming online!!!!
I know everyone will not know wat i am talking about
haha
i really wish
that that person can go online!!!!!!!

Okay camp tomorrow
many things not done
so sad!!!

then tomorrow going to get so stressed up!!!
Ya!!
i want to wish YanNing and Ezzah
good luck
going to be MCs
for the camp!!!!!
Good lucks!!

okay
i am waiting to bathe here so!
very excied to bathe since now have new toliet!!!!
How excitng
My toliet now no window la!!!
how funny!
haha

okay
i very scared my parents coming back
then buying dinner for me ya
how lucky
and i am blogging here!!
hahahaha
i dun think they mind
haha

My renovation is finishing!!!
on tuesday
BUT i will be like in camp
haha
so dun need to pack things
and clean the house
Yipee!

okay got to go
bye
jolene (:
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the trip to the toliet
Friday, June 15, 20076:49:00 PM
today
I have camp training
I was like almost late
hahhs
then
we went out
to buy the groceries
then we saw ben yeo and Ezann Lee
she looks quite pretty haha
then she look other time

then i was late, cause cannot get a cab la
very late
then we apologise to miss tan
i sound like she did not even know we was late haha

then we have to pack the stuff in
yayayaya
yayayayaya

how boring......

then i went for COH
i am in FLOWERPECKER
then my patrol have like some little people

okay shall say too much
we should wait and see la
if say then not fun

oh ya
need to bathe
Bye!!!
Jolene:)
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It is harder to hate then to love........
Thursday, June 14, 20075:30:00 PM
Hello
Today i bit moody
i found out where he is already.....
I am quite shock too

ehh
found him in friendster
I like suddenly hate myself
to do that
i was looking at everyone account like looking at their pictures then i saw him
i was like!!??!!??!!??
I am like
why he have so many photos ah??

a lot can
he did not look different
look the same

okay lets talk about other things
I am so sad

i am very feeling less suddenly
i am like
i somehow regret going back to friendster
of course i must not blame any one

but it is quite
so stupid
i wanted to call my friend that is the only oe this in detail
but guess wat
she is like going to watch movie

i dun understabd
why
i was so looking forward
than i now hate him
but it is hard to forget rite
i also saw his blog

very interesting
ya
watever
I HATE HIM
I HATE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FROM TODAY ONWARDS
I HAVE KNOWN HIM
WHO HE IS??
WHO IS THAT??

SORRY DUN KNOW U!

okay
i think everyone will be like??
wat she talking about??
mind me
i want to throw my anger away
i will cool down soon
I GUESS

jolene
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YoU ArE mY sIgNaL FiRe
Tuesday, June 12, 200710:34:00 PM
Hello
hello

today i went out with Mango Patrol
we met at Tampines Mrt
and went to Long John Silver
to eat my clam thingy
dun know how to spell
hahahah

okay
then we bought earrings to wear for our camp
not even sure whether we can use or not la
so i feel a bit waste money la

I dun realy like wearing earrings la
somemore
so BIG la
i dun really want to use

At Montip,
we saw Natassia and Michelle
so we like talk
then they just left lor
nothing much

then we decided to go Plaza Sin
to find cloth
we wanted to make the Miss Singapore thingy

we pay quite a lot lor
then still have to do lor
very tiring la

then i have to do for my sec one la
so waste my time la

okay
i want to sleep already
Bye
Jolene
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How I am such a fool!
Monday, June 11, 200710:33:00 AM
Yo Yo Yo!!!
Hello
I am back hahahaha
u know i had a dream yesterday
very funny la
I dream that the guy i like got beaten
by my dad

like so damn weird can
the dream was very clear la
i will always remember it
I guess it is avery weird dream la
so funny la
i told my sister la
then she say i am crazy la
how evil

yesterday,
my whole family went to buy toliet stuff to change the toliet
yes today got renovation
but not very noisy la
still can live
my bathroom also got renovated la

so i have to use a temporary toliet but very small
and it is made of CARDBOARD
Like wat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my dad say he very scare he will fall into the hole la
hahaha
very funny

so we bathe cold water can
then suddenly the toliet flushed cannot use la

have to go down
at the void deck
to bathe
the toliet is more spacious la
but i will definitely love MY OWN HOME TOLIET la
i miss it alots

i feel so like camp can
must queue
for the bathroom
so dumb can

then on the day when my renovation finishes
my camp will just start la
hahhs
so dumb rite

AND I HAVE NOT DONE MY HOMEWORK LA
have a lot la
guides also have to do some logbook or something
my computer also cannot print la
how??
i wonder whether my guides pals did it already??
Wonder wonder
dunno la
i have to look after my house
my mum went to my grandma's
so i must be alert so that the workers will do the work and will not steal my stuff
hahaha
so i am like in the living room
on the floor la
with a very ugly leg position
i will not want to see!!! hahhs

okay.
i must be alert
bye
Jolene(:
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Yo! Yo! People!
Saturday, June 9, 20071:00:00 PM
Hello people
i am so happy to see u!!!
so does Fussy
say hello Fussy
haha haha

that is my version of the Elmo starting
haha
okay. today is my third day of my house renovation
i am like!!!
wat!!!
still so long
my renovation will end around next next week la
I am lik so tired already la!!
so sick of it already

yes i have homework
but having this renoation make me
so lazy to do my work la
so boring
when i have time i will play
sound so lame rite

YES MY HOUSE NOW VERY THE NOISY
the sounds are non-stop one la
so irritating la
my mum is like sleeping and me and my sister all playing computer
i mean using the computer la
I really really miss Sims 2
I am like dying to play it

yesterday i had this dream that i was at a salmon buffet
i was like yumyum

then when i was about to eat!!!
my mum woke me up to start to brush up
i was like
i want to eat my salmon la!!!!!
so sad!!!!!
i was so wanting to eat salmon this days la
okay, my mum just came in to scold me
cause she know we are not studying ya!!
hahaha

okay got to go
Jolene
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Feeling sick!!!!
Thursday, June 7, 20072:10:00 PM
hello, people!!!
Today is the first of my renovation!!!!
That is quite crazy la!!!!

Yesterday, i felt so sick la!!
I got fever la!!!!
my temperature was 37.6, then decrease to 37.2
then it was 37.5
i did not eat any medicine la!!
i cure myself
hahaha

after that i could not take it already
so
i called my dad
then my dad ask my neighbour to give me some medicine

then i went to sleep lor
wat else can i do??
i felt so cold la!!!

so today
i woke up late
and my mum
was also sick
but she went to my grandma's house
to recover
so she did not even know that i was sick can
she even scold me can!!
i was that i even cry

now i am in my grandma's house
i just slept
so i think i feeling better
at first i thought i have dengue can
how scary!!!!!!

i think i am feeling so much better now
that is why i am blogging now
cause i brought my laptop to my grandma house

i hope i can recover before the next camp training
hopefully!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay got to go already!!!!
bye
Jolene (:
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Get out rite now. LEAVE!!!
Tuesday, June 5, 20073:58:00 PM
Yo Yo!!!!!!
Okay, report report
my house is still WAITING to renovating
hahaha so sad la
my renovation is on 7 june
so it is this week la
quite troublesome ya
hahahahahahahahaha

our patrol quite went out yesterday to buy our patrol identity
and make the patrol flag!!!
MANGO!!!!!!
okay we made a VERY CUTE mango man
hahaha
so in guides camp must see the
VERY VERY cute MANGO MAN
okay??
okay??

Got people come and visit my house la
my aunt!!!!!

okay,
i think i have to go
Jolene
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Renovation!!! Crazy!!!
Saturday, June 2, 20072:52:00 PM
My house having a VERY massive renovation!!!!!
it is in the whole block so u will know how dusty my house will be rite!!!!
Totally!!!

I was packing my house today
it is like super funny
where ever i turn!
I can see BOXES!!!
ALOT!!
I have like tonnes!!!!!

I am going crazy
My parents wanted to change the whole house tiles so
my whole family have to buy the tiles and bring it up
to the EIGHTH storey!!
it is like WAT THE!!!
Dun worry, I have a lift!
SCARED u!!!
When did i become so strong rite!!

I also have to clean and clear ALL the stuff on my table!
As u know, for those who came to my house before
MY TABLE IS SUPER MESSY LA
so being lazy!
I just dump all my things into the boxes!!
I really saw a lot of things in the past can!!!

I saw one diary
I kept that wrote when this guy say he like me can!!!
29 APRIL 2005!!!
29 APRIL 2005!!

It was like!!!!
so long ago!!

It was on my PSLE year, primary Six
Then i went to MAVIS tuition!
then i had a crush on this guy!!
he is nice
not the kind of SUPER handsome la
dun know why i like him too??

Then a few weeks after that
HE SAY HE LIKE ME CAN!!!
I was like so young!!
Okay, so i started to hate him!!
I even gave him a name!!!
DURIAN HEAD!
his hair was like so cute can!!!!!!!!

after that year
I quit already
but i got his number can!!!
my friend gave me!!!

So i was like
so happy la

then i start to realise that
it is hard to find a person who u like
and the persom like u too!!!!!
VERY HARD!!!

So i was like?
???????????????
then i start to forget myself and things are okay

until
this year
i saw him again la
in Bedok KFC
and then the radio in the KFC was this song on my blog
now!!!!
this song remind me of him la
that is why i have this song!!!

then recently
i think on last friday
I saw him again!!!!
at my house downstairs!!!!!
like wat the !!!!!!

okay then people will say that i have his number rite!!
ya, I lose my phone, remember!!!
i think last year!!
so how?
ANY suggestions??

so lets go back to TODAY
I was resting after eating my lunch
then my parents are like sleeping on the floor la
cause no chair
so funny la!!!!!!

Okay
got other things to do!!!
JOLENE
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30 May!!!!!
Friday, June 1, 20077:05:00 PM
I have like a lot of things to say!!!!
Firstly, I am very happy for Jermaine! my dearest help me to change to the blog skin!!
Thank u!
I been very busy ya!

I suddenly forgot wat i wanted to write?
How
when i got time then i say la

Got to go!!
Jolene
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